Happy Eid Mubarak!


Four years ago, on an Eid Fitr eve like this, I was sitting on my motorcycle behind you, looking at a sky full of fireworks when we got stuck in a traffic jam after riding around the city to deliver 2 backpacks full of yearbooks to our classmates. Every single one of their house.
Now looking back, I've got to admit that it was a folly and I was insane and you were clearly attracted to me. And I was undoubtedly crushing on you.


Because nobody wouldn't see why I would want to spend two freaking exhausting days with you delivering the books when in fact we could make them come pick the books themselves. And our friends' houses weren't even close one another.


But so we did, out of our insanity.

What do we chase in life, what do we look for? Is it happiness?

Doesn't being with the people we love makes us happy too? Then why do we have to live apart from them?

Oh those questions that pop into my head every now and then. The questions I ask myself each time I mingle with my lovable siblings. How many times those thoughts made me want to burst into tears throughout my stay at home last Easter holiday. The mishmash of thankfulness and regret when I finally felt the rare bliss of being with my own family. I got the blues thinking about the ten years of my life that I could have, but didn't spent with them.

But here's the funny thing: I knew I would be heartbroken, but why did I choose to leave in the first place? Wasn't there enough affection to hold me back from leaving?

Perhaps we're all fated to wander, searching for things that are outside of our reach. Perhaps that is solely the nature of every human being, as even Adam and Eve too wasn't satisfied with the Garden of Eden.